Impossible?

I am starting to believe this whole losing weight thing is impossible for me. I have never been this stuck before, gaining then losing. But never getting past a certain weight. I know my eating is the blame for all this cause I’m the type of person that if I mess up a little I might as well mess up a lot. So I’m so focused to see if I can get over this hump. It’s beyond frustrating! Thursday thru Tuesday I vow to eat right and exercise accordingly. Let’s see if I can finally get a few results and some much needed motivation!

Weight as of 09/28/2010: 183.0 – up 3lbs.

Old School

I have decided it’s time to go back to what got me here to begin with. Ive decided that I NEED to go back to 90mins of exercise and around 1k calories to eat. This is because this past week has been horrific, trying to kick a apple fritter addiction is hard! I’ve had donuts everyday since Monday and it’s all finally catching up to me. Weighed in this morning at 185.8! Yikes! That’s up 5lbs just since Wednesday!? Don’t see how that’s possible but the scale is definitely going in the opposite direction of how I need it to be. It’s my own fault I know what I’m doing and I know what the results of all that will be. I do get annoyed/jealous when I see or hear people eat the same stuff I do, if not worse, and don’t gain ANY weight. But that’s not me so I just have to go back to what I know and deal with it. I got huge results when I first started this journey by doing the above plan so I figure I will or should see something happen. At this point anything going down will be beneficial for me. I never thought that these last 30lbs would be so hard to lose. I assumed I would of reached my goal this past August and now I’m hoping for the end of the year. My husband keeps informing me that I have lost a whole other person but I still feel so bad when I gain weight, hopefully this plan will stick for a bit and I can finally kick this problem.

YO YO!

Yo Yo! I feel like I am on a constant roller coaster with this weight loss. It’s  beyond annoying to lose then gain then lose again. I have talked about this before and have yet to figure out the cause of this, anyone out there have any ideas why this happens please share! I have once again lost motivation this week but that’s mainly due to me coming down with a cold. But I did work out cause I still have goals to reach! I also was told this past week by my husband that I am getting too skinny! He was serious too! I don’t want him to not be attracted to me anymore by being not what he likes but I also have a mind set on where I want to be. I told him when I loose 10 more pounds I will maybe readjust my goal but not promising anything. I know he will love me regardless I just want him to like looking at me too :). Anyone have any thoughts on this please share with me cause I am kind of torn on the issue. Well until next week!

weight as of 09/22/2010: 180.8 – still up a bit but better then I was!

Results!

Just a quick update! I was focused this week to see some kind of results, it has been a few weeks and I needed to see a lose to keep my motivation up! I ate so well this week, even on my so called day off. I also decided to increase my exercise by 15mins to help me burn a few extra calories, this really helped. I may try to keep it that way for awhile longer. I want to continue to stroke my ego by seeing good results!

weight as of 09/09/10: 180.2 – down 4.6 – plus 175lbs lost!!

No Big Surprise

It’s been a few weeks since I have updated but my weigh ins have continued. The last couple weeks have been an uphill battle. Craving and eating whatever, whenever. The first week I gained .8lbs and the second week another pound. Neither came as a big shock, I continue with my exercise regimen and even up’d my routine to include an extra 15mins. I’m going to try to keep this up till I start seeing a loss. I’ve once again lost a little steam on this journey but trying to get myself back together. I do have a cruise countdown going on so hopefully that will motivate me some! Until next week…

Current weight: 184.8